Journeyman

The first step is admitting. 

I am a negative person.

I am trying to change.

Don’t get me wrong. My pessimistic attitude is what makes me so charming and well liked. I mean everybody gets sarcasm, right? RIGHT? 

I think what’s prompting this change is constantly seeing all of my friends happy and getting everything that they want out of life. I’m at that awkward age where all of my friends are getting married and having kids. Then there’s me. With my dogs. Alone. I’ve never been one who desperately wanted to get married. I’ve always wanted to have kids, but being married never appealed to me. Then I realized all the cool kids were doing it. 

It really hit me that I needed to change when one of my oldest friends told me she was pregnant. This should’ve been such a happy conversation, but I was finding myself having to fake my happiness. This didn’t sit well with me and I knew something needed to happen.

There’s no reason for me to not enjoy everything life has to offer. It’s time for me to stop being so negative and get out there. It’s time for me to change. I’m going on a journey to reach happiness, whatever that means to me. I’m not sure what exactly i’m looking for on this journey but whatever it is I hope I find it. I’m going to stop being so negative and start living…right after this date I just cancelled. I need to catch up on my DVR.